A Little Check In
I feel like it’s been a while since I put pen to paper and started rambling on about something or another, so here goes. I’ve been in a bit of a weird space recently. To be blunt, I’ve been getting my shit together and I’m really enjoying the space I’m currently in. So I wanted to share an update with you all.
My mindset is probably in the best place it has been for a very long time, and I say that with no exaggeration. When I started this blog, I started with the intention of trying to relate to as many people as possible, and from the response I have received, I’ve realised that there are so many people that suffer from anxiety, low self-esteem and experience emotions, as a direct result of their culture and expectations set by themselves and other people.
I think anyone in their twenties experiences a roller coaster of emotions- which I’m sure is applicable to all age groups, but I haven’t made my thirties yet, so I’ll report back when I do lol. There are so many expectations of where you should be, where your life should be going, what things you should have achieved and how much you should earn. There are so many invisible (BS) timelines; that we should be engaged, be a homeowner, get married, have kids, the list goes on… That we sometimes forget to cease the moment and just have fun.
Truth be told, I haven’t been appreciating the things I do have vs. the things that are yet to come. In hindsight, I’ve become so caught up on this pandemic, planning a wedding and transitioning in my life, that I’ve forgotten how far I’ve come. A few years ago, I felt so lost in who I was and what the hell I was doing, in all aspects of life, that I couldn’t really give 110% to anything, because I lacked direction. How many people can relate?
Now I look back, and I realise that I have everything I wished for back then. I’ve accepted an amazing career opportunity, which is a huge blessing in this current climate, and as a result of this, I know new things will fall into place. I believe your twenties should be the foundation for the rest of your life, like a starting point. Therefore, saving, investing and building on your existing knowledge is so, so key. Knowledge is power and I'm a strong believer that we can speak things into existence.
I'm going to do the things I enjoy the most. Memories make me happy, so why not make more? I enjoy exploring, travelling, seeing new places and experiencing new things. This year has taught me how important it is to cease the moment. I don’t want to feel guilty for selecting who I see and how I spend my time. So I’m ceasing the day a little more and not thinking twice about spending more time with people that have a good vibe about them. No matter how busy you are, what stage of life you are at, ‘me time’ is very important for your mental health. There should be no guilt in deciding how you spend your time.
I’m also learning to expect a little less from people. We naturally set expectation for people, (sometimes without realising), and this often leads to disappointment. I’ve realised that not everyone in your life will be a ‘ride or die’ kinda person, but every person has been placed there for a reason, (even if it is to test you). Everyone has a lesson to teach. I think it’s really important to be real with yourself and recognise what you love in comparison to what drains you. I’ve started investing more time in people that make me feel good and the people that invest time to check in on me. It’s a two way street huns and I’m here for it. Remember you are a product of the people around you and if it’s not good energy, it can’t stay.
When was the last time you reminded yourself of how strong you really are and praised yourself for how you’ve handled a situation?
I feel selfish but in the best way. By protecting my peace, I have less anxiety, which means I am more available and ready to deal with situations, and I am making better choices for myself, which in turn helps me to support those around me. My journey to self-love is a very, very new one but I am committed to making myself a better person both mentally and physically. This journey starts and ends with yourself. I am working out a few times a week (a bluddy surprise to me too lol), which helps immensely with anxiety, and I have recently started my Invisalign journey, which I know will have such a huge impact on my self-esteem.
I don’t really know where this shift has suddenly come from, but I know that right now, I am ready for this new stage of life. It’s amazing that if you radiate positive vibes, doors open and opportunities fly in, whilst attracting the same energy and like minded people. It’s a good place to be.
So I guess the reason I’m rambling on, is because I want this to be your September reminder, that whoever you are, wherever you come from; remember that you have come this far and you will overcome whatever hurdles have presented themselves. Sometimes you have to look back on the last few years and recognise that the bad times that felt never ending, will eventually end. That the people who are challenging you, will one day no longer be in your space, and the feelings you feel, will make sense.
Things are always okay in the end, and if you needed a sign that good times are coming, then let this be it.
Sending love & light,